Everything you are, falls from the sky like a star.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

hello. my goals for this year:

honours for SYF.
12 points for prelim.
less than 10 for O levels.
treasure my friends even more (how can i)
keep my relationship stable.
i;m going to do something to be remembered by by my juniors for EVER.

st. margs is going to remember me. the girl who flouted everyone of the not-so-serious school rules and revolutionized American Chinese food.

Chinse food in america = instant noodles with sweet and sour pork occasional broccoli and chop suey. and corn soup. YUCK.

i'm tired. i don't have anymore time to blog nowadays so i'm stealing the time i'm supposed to bathe to blog. sigh. i'm quite depressed. the schoolwork is really really over the quota and i seem to go home with a heavier heart everyday.

jw says he loves me more and more everyday. yes i love you too.

is anyone going to help me with my chinese homework?

1/10/2007 06:40:00 PM

Sunday, December 10, 2006

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

oh yeah babe. i'm leavin' on a jet plane. but, i do know when i'll be back again. haha. (: well peeps, i guess this is it. TIME TO SAY GOODBYE -starts belting out sarah brightman- buuuttt, not before i fill you in on all the concert details! (:

when i went online, the first thing i saw were 5 band members, and they're either comm. or sl. so, that's really cool. (:

first half wasn't so good. i swear i mispitched a lot because i was so nervous. hands were shaking. and that's a no-go sign because the horn will waver. ): )))))) : i don't care. it's over and although we didn't sound so good, my high a flat came out! (: happiness.

second half was better. ((: not very much better, but, still. (:

haha, the ij horns are super cute.. they were so nervous! (: <3 i like them many many!

horn section took many photos. (((((((((( : gawd, i love my section so much much much!

hornies ((:

you guys better listen up here okay! (: you have been the most wonderful section in the whole entire world to me, and without you guys, my life would have lost quite a bit of its meaning! (: and although i really am very very different from the previous batch of seniors, i must say that you guys have proved to be the most fascinating, challenging, inspiring, joking, playful, annoying, awful, wonderful, loving, bunch of adorable monkeys i've ever met! and i know you'll try your very very best to have be at your peak by syf, (: so, continue to work hard peeps, and i know we're going to outdo all that we've ever done.

we are STARRRS (:

so, peeps, with that, i leave you the Horn section of SMSB.

Atalia, first on my list as always. alphabetical. (: you're a jewel. be thankful for the people around you, and always take the initiative! (: i'm really proud of you and you just need confidence to boost your courage okay! (: you're going to be fantastic!

Carissa, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with me. they are very very valued and i certainly have gained a lot from all your feedback. and never ever ever, be shy about it. i think it's very very valid and it's always good for our section to talk things through. you need more confidence, and that is the only thing you are ever going to need. you are capable, and you know it. just give that courage a little boost okay? i'll buy you red bull. ((:

Ella, you have been a great joy to me. from the start of the year when you refused to open your mouth until the bimbo i see infront of me today. (: when you juniors said that you were actually very rowdy i swear i didn't believe them. but now that i've known you much better, it seems that, hey, you've got lots and lots of potential! keep that ever-persevering spirit up and never ever give up on yourself. failure is reached when you stop trying. you're getting there. so be confident, and relax. (: you're going to be real great.

Maithilli, you've been a really really cool section mate, bloody responsible treasurer, and the most fantastic of friends ever. i don't know how i'd get through my life in St. Margs without you. you're always there when i need you, especially the hectic times when everyone was so stressed out. thank you mai mai. (: for now, i really want you to be confident. you've already given it your best shot, and i'm very very confident that you're capable of attaining higher (if possible) standards.(: you're fantastic! (:

Nadirah, you naughty monkey! (: you've always been very supoprtive about my actions and always doing the little things no one cares much about. don't you ever think that it goes unnoticed. (: you're real cool. buttttttt, you're gonna have to blow that horn of yours louder and harder! (: i'm sure you're gonna be really great! (: let's work together okay! (:

Sahidah, my lovely junior. you're really really wonderful. being the only one in the section, i can understand that you feel lonely. don't ever ever think for a moment that you seniors don't care about you. every sectionals you name is mentioned a few times. (: you're really brave and i admire you for that. now we're going to have to work even harder to attain the best standard you can okay? i love you many many many! (:

tammy chng. you're not going to read this, but i'm going to tell you that you've been wonderful to me.. we've come a long way since primary school and we've really been through a lot together. and, well, we've had our fair share of troubles and probelms, but i want to thank you for standing firm and always trying your best for the section. (: you're cool mate. really cool.

<3

i love you alllllll..

well. i'm going to china. see you guys in 2 weeks. sayonara. and tag my blog!

cheryl:

whatever you decision may be, whatever you feel inside, the choice is always yours. please learn to be selfish and make the right choices. i'm always supporting you all the way. send me emails and keep me updated alright? (:

<3

good night/morning world.

12/10/2006 12:48:00 AM

Friday, December 08, 2006

hello babehhh.

TOMORROW I AM GOING TO HAVE A SMASHING CONCERT. (: and I DON'T CARE! <3

many loves to the lovely lovely people who wished me luck, LOVE<

and happy happy anni cheryl soh xue ke my lovely god daughter. (:

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHXXXXXXXXXXXXX. i'm leaving singapore soon! can't wait. i'm tired of the weather. but im going to miss everybody so much! ))):

eh. updated dimsum family!

Atalia , my FAN CHOY.
Carissa, my .. i forgot.
Ella, my har gao.
Maithilli, my lo mai gai.
Nadirah, my chicken feet.
Nicole, THE SIEW MAI.
Tammy, my salad prawn.
Sahidah, my xiao long bao.

BWAHA. had a pretty nice rehearsal today! (: we were making fun of somebody again. BWAHAHAH. and that carissa abidin i forgot what her dumpling name was, was making so much noise behind me! BWAHA. and she was happily bullying everyone, esp choi har go. then fan choy came around and started bullying people also. so whilst ij were playing their very nice syf piece, we were trying to stifle our laughter like crazy. (:

went out with mai mai lomaigai for dinner, (: talked a lot okay! we re-visited our primary school days, sec1, sec2, syf and the current batch. i feel super xin fu okay ! (:

rushed to the library to grab books. and i found a Katherine E. Woodiwiss! COULD YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!?!?!

sigh, going to take so many exams next year. prelims. music. syf (if you'd call that an exam), o's... I DON'T LIKE. ):

got back home around 10 plus. bathed and indulged in icecream. deserve it okay. my blood sugar is going to be running low tomorrow after the all that adrenaline pushing through my veins. (:

i'm being ignored by someone. ): wish we could talk like we once could. the way we'd talk about anything under the sun and perfectly understand each other. we may have our different ways of thinking. but, ignoring me isn't very nice. and with all the funny excuses you give? it feels quite sad. wish you'd come back. (i am not referring to you jw :p)

sigh. i live in the heart of contentment and happiness.

thanks for being so patient. <3

12/08/2006 10:50:00 PM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

hello PEEPIES! i am really really happy! other than the fact that my concert G is very very sharp, and the horns are a leetle bit out of tune, I AM SUPER DE DUPER HAPPY OKAY! and carissa abidin's happiness is rather contagious! (:

it's DA SHAO BAO'S BIRTHDAY TODAY! ((((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU CARISSA ABERDEENE DA SHAO BAO!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

<333

it was MAITHILLI'S BIRTHDAY LAST WEEK!!! ((((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MAITHILLI MY BELOVED LO MAI GAIIII!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!

atalia, my char siew bao was super quiet today. HAHA. carissa the da shao bao was so shy. didn't want us to sing a birthday song for her. PAISEH LEH someone. ella the har gao was so busy bimbo-ing today. maithilli the lo mai gai .. i can't remember what she did today. nadirah the chicken feet was so happy during sleigh ride that her horn kept bouncing up and down! tammy the salad prawn cut her finger on the horn. so i helped her bandage it (what a good mother i is!) and and i kissed her FINGER! (: so sweet RIGHT RIGHT! (: sahidah the xiao long bao didnt go for band today. BECAUSE THERE IS NO JUNIOR BAND! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. (:

and all of us were so so so so hyper today! because there's this person.. and she kept doing something.. and we counted , 5 whole times throughout a particular song! SO CUTE! ((((:

shirllin is back in sg too! (: am i happy or am i happy? <3

EH. 3 more days.

sigh, jw moodswings. ): never mind. as long as you continue to open the doors for me and be really really nice i'll just about put up with anything. <3

i love band and my section very very very VERY much. and and my hair is not so flat anymore! HAHA, (:

loves,

12/07/2006 05:25:00 PM

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

hello babehh.

i haven't blogged for EONS! thanks to the funny guy who's been blogging for me. SO ROUMA. haha. (:

EHHHX. i had a 6 hour band practice today. WHEW. draining. and i've got the weirdest side effect. my teeth aches.

guest conductor came today! omg, he's really cute! i'm really going to enjoy this concert i think.

i don't know. but i feel that my h&v has somehow detiorated. maybe it's because i haven't been practicing. and without my sectionals, i'm going to die. DIE. DIE> ehx.

this is accent. >

this is marcato. ^

this is breath mark. ,

this is sharp. #

this is flat. b

this is repeat :

okay i was bored.

ehhh. yesterday's section dinner was so so nice! let's all go eat steamboat AGAIN N AGAIN N AGAIN! (:

i love my secttttioooonnnn! (: <33333

Atalia , my char siew bao.
Carissa, my da shao bao.
Ella, my har gao.
Maithilli, my lo mai gai.
Nadirah, my chicken feet.
Nicole, THE SIEW MAI.
Tammy, my salad prawn.
Sahidah, my xiao long bao.

YAY! we is dimsum family! (: props leg up and eats like she was born in the hawker centre. i can't believe this is the batch that i'm going to graduate in. this really big bunch of fantastic monkeys whom i love very very much! (: and i'm going to graduate from band in 5 months. I AM SO NOT EXCITED. ):

my rebonded hair is FLAT FLAT FLAT. ): eeyer.

okay. can't think of anything else to blog about.

got this thing about guys who use dettol.

OH I WATCHED OPEN SEASON YESTERDAY! FARRRNAY man.. oh Ashton K. voiced over one of the characters. hooootttttt. (:

okay. nothing else to say. BYEBYE. can't wait for the next 4 days to be over. so fast huh. almost 20 days have passed alr. (:

waiting for you to come and say you love me. <3

12/06/2006 08:24:00 PM

Monday, December 04, 2006

hair rebonded...(should have finished by now:))
haha...had a fight yesterday but guess that probably would be the shortest fight between a couple. Haha...but it felt so sweet after the fight coz we know that we care so much for each other and we are so loved by each other--mushy=))

it's the 4th today, 6 days more before we can meet but still MISS YOOUU alot!!

I don't know what to say.

Wanna know what the fight was about? It's kinda interesting coz it's not due to some common problem that you've probably seen it on tv drama. Plus, you must be curious how can we fight and resolve a fight when we are 3000km apart*note:we din fight online*....

well, are you really tempted to know now?

hahah...N-A-H...cannot say...woahhaha...

your feeling has been cheated!!

kick me-

hehe...

12/04/2006 08:19:00 PM

Saturday, December 02, 2006

nicole is tired, nicole is pissed
but nicole is happy because there is ME!
Life is stressing, life is busy
but nicole is enjoying because she is loved by yours truly.
:))

there is so much that have happened that you've probably missed, so let me fill you in.
Band camp was fun and nicole had a really great time with her section and her band. Being an SL, she's kind of stressed at times, but as a responsible leader that is filled with love, she tried to make sure that nothing went wrong throughout the period. she spent lots of time practicising for drills before the camp, but there wasn't much drills to be done during camp. sad huh.. HAHAA. i did drills for 4 whole years okay. (:

Nothing is perfect in the world, small conflicts couldn't be avoided but her friends and her will one day realize that they are all good friends and they love one another, so please do not be upset by the little fight. Bu Da Bu Xiang Shi, good friendship must be able to withstand all these in order to grow.

Missing someone is painful but knowing that someone else missed you is sweet.(= xin fu of coz((: )

Thank you for all you've done these days. There are no little things that you did, for every single one of them is great to me.

Today is the 13th day we've not seen each other, but in our heart, we are not separated for even a second, so baby don't you feel sad when I am not sitting/standing/walking next to you because right in your heart, I am always there with you.

Holiday homework and lessons are eating niqq's time like crazy but it's nice to see that time passes by quickly because that means we are going to meet soon.

No one in this universe will know what will happen tomorrow,but today I can tell you I LOVE YOU with all my HEART!

the moon is hanging, the stars are shining...
Baby...one more day down...
Missing you always

do not be jealous if no one blog for you~~do it to someone and I am sure you will be rewarded one day~~
Yours truly,ME :))

[edit/] by nicole,

HAHAHAHAHAH, thanks babe. responsible and what loving? your head.. (: love love love love love. and thank you for everything again. (:

hmmmmmmmm. lots of things happened. spent last night crying.

AHHHHH. and jw's being MUSHYYY. (:

12/02/2006 11:46:00 PM

Thursday, November 30, 2006

truce,

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

i thought this song was super over-rated. when i looked at the lyrics, i found that the song really really makes sense.

oh sigh. 9 more days to the concert and i'm really worried about my high aflat. i've got a feeling i'm going to mispitch it. but then again. i'm really going to try my best and put in every bit of my heart and voice into all the songs. this is gonna be one of my last public performances. so, (: i'll take a whack at it.

ohhhh. i found somebody to love. ((:

band camp was fun i guess. i am going to go by nicole's guideline for life. and that is to never regret anything. so whatever i did this year for the band, i did willingly and i enjoyed it. and well, i guess i don't regret anything. at all. even though my results suck. i had a great time in class. even though i didn't exactly make the section jump to much greater heights, and other stuff happened, i really really did my best. and i have nothing else to say.

thanks to everyone who tried to cheer me up. i really appreciate it. (:

(: i think my days are going to look better. (:

In the light of the sun, is there anyone?
Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed...
you said...

You don't know me,
you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me,
you don't wear my chains...

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you...
they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me,
you don't even care,
She said
You don't know me,
you don't wear my chains...

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over,
where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California,
I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover
and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town,
to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer,
some snow would be nice...
Boston...

where no one knows my name...

, just some random thoughts running through my head.

reflections. the more i think of it, the more i get scared. the more i fear. the more i think.

11/30/2006 05:59:00 PM

Monday, November 27, 2006

okay i'm pissed. so forgive me if i offend anyone. but i am really really pissed.

so i'm angry. no big deal. you already know better than that. you should just leave me alone. how many effing times are we going to fight like this? because if we continue fighting, i'd rather not talk to you. i guess it just hurts too much. i guess this entire year is just a dream. we lasted a whole six months without fighting ONCE. and now. look at us. this scene repeats over and over and over again. you come back home and the first thing you do is scold me. sure, i do the wrong things. but can't you see that not everyone is your student? not everyone enjoys being scolded. not everyone pays to get scolded.

i don't know why, but it seems that everytime someone fights, you're involved. let's take the fight with grandma for example. you fought over something so simple. and let's look at us. we fight over what. HEADPHONES? wtf. i really don't understand why you have to pick at nitty gritty stuff like that. and this isnt about the clothes issue. it has effing NOTHING to do with the clothes. why do you always have to drag things in? things that have no relavance to us?

and i don't see why i'm selfish. you always ask for things. why can't you just reach out and grab it? like it's right under your nose. take for example. the cordless is on the dining table and you're seated at the table. you ask me to pass it to you whilst i sit at the computer table. i'm selfish? because i worry jw who's 3000km away? i'm sorry.. but he's my boyfriend. not yours. and i'm perfectly capable of handling him. not that your advice is not appreciated, in fact, i value your advice. but a smart woman does not start a fight with another smart woman. don't you think i've already told him to ignore matters between the both of us? it's not as if i'm dumb or something. i have eyes and ears. i know.

your moods are so sporadic. i'm just on the computer minding my own business and there you go shooting off at me as if i killed your pineapple plant. you don't even have a pinepple plant. and the headphones? is it MY FAULT that you can't find it? i don't think so. you can go from super needy to emotionally detached to wonderwoman in scold-only mode to sweetest woman in the world. why can't you just be mom? is that really too much to ask for?

oh wait a minute. maybe it is. after all. you've fed and clothed and loved me for all my 15 years. and you ask me what i gave to you.

headaches. tears. lies. love. joy. shit. possibly,

i have nothing left to say mom. just that i think you've really gone too far this time round. and i'm not trying to be smart. i'm only trying to tell you that your tongue is probably sharper than the stupid kitchen knife and maybe it's time you thought before you spoke. because your words really slice through people. and the tiniest of errors get blown up into magnificent proportions for what? for the sake of you scolding me?

thanks mom. i really appreciate all that you've done for me. it's up to your fantastic imagination to believe that. but i'm really really tired of fighting with you over nothing. you're not the only person who feels bad. contrary to what you imagine, i am not the heartless woman you say you gave birth to. maybe it's just easier if we don't talk. then we won't fight. because i'm tired. and if you want to pick a fight with me, by all means go ahead. you know you will lose out. because if you really reflect on your actions, you'll realise something somewhere has gone very very wrong.

i'm not putting this up to wash my dirty linen in public. but this is the only way i can actually tell you something without you interrupting my train of thoughts with your rebuttals.

i guess that's all i can say mom. i can tell you i'm sorry, but i won't know for what. because i really feel that i haven't done anything wrong. and if you're going to blame this on my attitude again, it's alright. i'll just clam up. then you don't have anything to say about me anymore. i'm tired. i'm stressed. and i'm panicky.

and i won't kill ants for you anymore. you can jolly well kill your own ants.

good night world. i had a bad one.

11/27/2006 11:06:00 PM

ogay people, no more posts until probably saturday.

quite depressed actually.
not gonna talk to anyone.

tata.

until then, nicole.

11/27/2006 09:21:00 PM

Thursday, November 23, 2006

i have to make an innocent observation. "insects seem to enjoy falling on me" you won't believe this. but the second last time i took a bus to music class, a caterpillar fell on me. this morning while i was at the bus-stop, i flicked off 3 ants and a beetle while a butterfly flew alarmingly near my hair.

the past two days haven't been so good. i spent 20 minutes on one piece that is one-tenth the size of With Heart and Voice with mr. hanafi. not good. i tell you. playing scales in Csharp minor is horrible horrible horrible. the music is so sad and the fingerings are enough to make me almost cry.

i'm tired of this. i really don't want to fight anymore. it's always my fault. and if i say i'm sorry to you, you'd say that i give you attitude and that i don't mean it. so help me, i'm tired of this.

it's day 5, we're almost a quarter of the quota done! (: happiness is the [/edit] 3000plus kilometres between the both of us.

today's band was pretty okay. i enjoyed it a lot. and hey, my high high c is finally coming out! (: i'm happy happy happy! i guess, mr. tan said it was beautiful! (: oooooh! you don't know how it feels to be complimented. (: this is all the motivation i need to work hardd! (:

blow suck blow suck blow suck suck blow. sounds familiar? (: it's the f major scale on the harmonica! NOW WHAT WERE YOU THINKING! bwahahhaha. on the horn, you stick your hand out and in and out and in and out and in and in and out. (: it's the B flat major scale on the french horn! (: damn farrrnnaayy. NOW WHAT WERE YOU THINKING AGAIN! (: blehhxx.

lalabee, lalabee, honeybees in the tree..

i want to walk on the beach barefoot with you again. i don't think we have a chance anymore right?

i have nothing else to say. i'm quite sad actually.

OOH I GOT MY SECOND EARHOLE! (:

happy! (:

okay, byebye.

so kiss me and smile for me.
i'll be missing you.

11/23/2006 07:33:00 PM

Monday, November 20, 2006

DAY 2!!

did this yesterday at the barbeque. (:

Today is BORING. BORING WITH CAPITAL LETTERS. the only happy thing about today is that i woke up hearing someone's wonderful wonderful wonderful voice! (: and he gave me the most wonderful present he could have at that point of time. (((((( : which i won't tell you. because it's not very interesting. and you wouldn't think it's cool. but thanks jw. (:

let's see. recap of today. woke up, went out with mom to get a refund for jx's book, ryan's schoolbooks and pay my school fees. mean lady at jx's school was HORRIBLE. she simply refused to give me a refund because i was a little kid. and obviously when i went back to mom, she got mad at me for "not being able to complete such a simple task". -pissed- ryan's schoolbooks were a piece of cake and my school fees are nonsensical. sigh. ): then i got caught up in some legal matters about my guardian. for the last three years, i've had to live with the default "father as legal guardian" in the school and i just realized that i have to do something about it. so. here i am. (: imma gonna set things right. (:

then slacked at home for a bit.. decided to go on another diet, so that means no more sweet stuff and absolutely no dinner for the next few days until i lose weight. i feel very fat. and, if i go to china, i'll either get really fat (because i'll be forced to eat), or i'll get super skinny (because my stomach can't take the food). HAHA. sucks man. )) : but at least see jw there. ((:
went to the beautician's with mom. ohmygod i love the sauna! (: i won't divulge any details.. but it was rather fun. (:

hmm. came home for dinner, and i packed my ENTIRE closet in less than one hour okay! THREE CHEERS FOR NICOLE. lolx, i was like "come on nicole. stop dreaming. the faster you pack, the more time you get to spend on the computer typing long long emails! (:
i'm desperate for clothes. haha.. shoot me.. and i absolutely don't have ANY shoes. ARRRGGGHHHH. nicole! what is wrong with you! @_@ gotta go shopping. (:

i owe people dates.
->edmund
->sabrina
->connie
->louis

what else?

sighh. i'm tired. OOOOOOH/ i forgot to mention. i'm down with a cold. -sniffle sniffle-
can't think of anything else. good night world. (:

i'm waiting for the day i see your face again.. i love you baby. (:

11/20/2006 09:53:00 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

my intenet is so screwed. the wireless is so unstable, it belongs to IMH. which results in my apparent lack of interesting posts. it's 12 noon and i'm at the edge of my seat ready to spring up for more tissue.

let's see. yesterday was grandpa's birthday.. so we all got together in the ancestral house (gosh, this sounds so heritage-ish) then moved off to some teochew restaurant for a thirteen-course dinner. omfg. i haven't eaten so much for 15 years. and and. because it was grandpa's birthday, we all had to give him face.. sitting at the super cramped table, me jw, jx, gina and ryan really crammed. and lucky me. i had to sit opposite my ~~awful~~ nice auntie and my ~~wonderful~~ cousins. forgive me. but if you've followed my blog(s) you'll know that i'm not exactly very chummy with my various cousins.

lesson learnt: nicole is going to have TONS of kids and start her own clan, so all the cousins will know and love and cherish each other.

anyway. yesterday's dinner was like a hot plate. the sizzling. the tension.

watched happy feet yesterday! (: and after that i was REALLY HAPPY! ooh. i watched flushed away on thursday (and WHO DID I MEET? my music centre's boss). so now i'm kinda torn between wanting to be a slug (flushed away) and a penguin(happy feet).

i don't know. this week has been really tiring and i haven't even started on my tonne of holiday homework. let's see. monday was drills, tuesday was band, wednesday was music, thursday was band, friday was band. tell me i'm busy. ):

edit on my last post.
sabrina oh, i'm so glad you came into my life. without a doubt my life would have lost some of its meaning without having been your friend, especially through those really trying times when our friendship was thoroughly tested by everyone else. (: you've been really great and all! (: i'm really glad to know you.. (:

well, i really miss school. )) : i miss the gossiping at the back of class (JOY LUCK CLUB!), tessa cheryl and me sharing problems and funny times. amanda and her shopping frenzies. rayna and her LIFE IS SO UNFAIR. mitch and her stomach. mila and her sweet smile. hosanna and her blurness. haley and hweepeng laughing like crazy. i love all of you. (:

happy first month sweetie. although we spent almost four hours in each others hands, it's not going to take the pain away from 20 days of seperation. but every day without fail, i'll countdown and brave each new day with strength that comes from knowing you're 2800 kilometres away, thinking and loving me. so cheer up, be happy. you're amongst those who love you now.. (: and i'm glad you're safe. we've come a long way from being friends to teaching you about girls, to talking about stuff not to be mentioned in polite company, to telling each other stuff about our families to finally saying i love you.

and i say, i love you.

on a lighter note, i can't ever compare with people like cheryl and tessa. they're on marathons. cheryl's reaching one year and tessa is fast approaching. (: i've got the world's cutest and sweetest friends! knowing that he's leaving they left really nice tags! (: i'm so glad to have all of you.. (:

my eyes are shutting soon. sleeping at 2 and getting up at four is not nice. especially when you feel like crying.

my schedule for the next week is as such:
monday: nothing planned so far = holiday homework ):
tuesday: SL meeting plus band.
wednesday: music
thursday: band
friday: band
saturday: jb i think?
sunday: i don't know so far.

i want to watch casino royale ):

DOES ANYONE HAVE THE DVD of PHANTOM? i really want to watch it again..

gonna upload photos next time.. (: yummers.

list of songs for YOU to download:
true- ryan cabrera
somebody to love- Queen
can't take that away- mariah carey
shining friends- finche fung (or somit)
dreaming of you- selena
we're gonna get married- randy newman
proud mary- ike and tina turner
santa baby- eartha kitt
picture- kid rock
music is the key- sarah connor
never let you go- third eye blind

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

can you remember the time we both sang this on the bus? (:

i just wanna hold you close. (:

11/19/2006 12:06:00 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

there's a certain happiness that fills one's heart.. i don't exactly know how to describe it..

let's start with my sad sad feelings for class 3e3 06:

ughh. i actually didn't like my class at the beginning of the year.. i didn't know anyone and i just hated it. sitting with TESSA and kayminn was about the nicest thing about the first half of the year because you get to hear all sorts of gossips! (( : and there was a lot of backstabbing from the seniors and back.. but within the class, it was really boring. at the beginning of term three, i changed to sitting next to devassre and discovered AMANDA CHEN who honestly made my life so much better because i got to know CHERYL SOH as well! so me, tessa, cheryl and amanda became known as the JOY LUCK CLUB! we sat at the back of class and talked non-stop about boys, girls, love, weirdos in school, food, shopping, clothes, accessories, laughed, ate non-stop, used (discreetly) our phones, and had a whale of a time..

i got caught for copying stuff, lending people stuff to copy, got sent outta class, cursed some teachers (in a joking manner), wished to castrate some people, feared some teachers, and really had a great time killing ants, whacking mosquitos and not-cleaning up the classroom.

this year, i also met SALMAH, my very very beloved singing buddy, STEPHANIE WONG, my OTHER singing buddy, BEVERLEY my mei mei, MITCH, the joker of the class forever talking about farting and her uneasy stomach, RAYNA, really really cool person, VALERIE ILLIADI, whom everyone was so nuts about because she had abs and INGGRID, my long lost basketballer-turned-chick friend! Annabel, who worked with me on my geography project, HALEY AND HWEEPENG who laughed non-stop and always cheered me up.. MILA AND HOSANNA who are the sweetest girls in class! (:

and i can't remember what else already. haha.. so here's to class threeE three, whom i will not see for about a month or so until school begins.. and to a new year of class fourE three! (: I LOVE THREETHREE! (: <333

1. amanda chen
2. amrita
3. ashley
4. haley
5. michelle
6. cheryl
7. valerie illiadi
8. hwee peng
9. stephanie chia
10. clarissa
11. deborah
12. devaasre
13. hosanna
14. inggrid
15. jamie
16. joanna
17. johnia
18. kristy
19. hei tung
20. beverly
21. mila2
2. annabel
23. nicole
24. nabilah
25. ranjini
26. rayna
27. rebecca
28. salmah
29. stephanie wong
30. sweeney
31. tammy
32. dorothy
33. rachel
34. xin yi
35. kayminn
36. tessa
37. valerie teo
38. ai ru
39. susanna

(:

recently, i've discovered a few things. i love band with all of my heart... and i also hate saying goodbye to the ones i love. band today was scary.. i won't comment on it.

jw sent me off to school this morning.. since we both take the same bus.. he "sent me off". and his bus stop was like 3 stops before mine.. i had to say goodbye to him. ohmygod you won't believe the pain i felt when he walked out the door. and don't you dare tell me that i'm sentimental. because i am and i know. and from today onwards, i'll never say goodbye to anyone i love anymore. i will say "see you later".

but for now.. my immediate problem is to survive 20 days without him and 10 or more days incommunicando with him because there's no internet when he goes off for his business trip! ))) : i will sit and mope and sulk. someone will drag me shopping, we'll go for a girl's only movie, i'll cry at night, i'll have to eat chocolate, and i'll learn to love him even more.

another statement i can make is that i've NEVER felt this way ever. i'm usually unsentimental about my loves. i'm the detached non-emo kinda person. but here, now, i suddenly realise that i have feelings i never knew existed.

and so, i dread this sunday. it's 6 days away. ):

so kiss me, and never let me go.

i love CHERYL TESSA AMANDA ! (:

and you jw, (:

good night world.

schedule for this week:
monday: drills
tuesday: band
wednesday: drills and music
thursday: band
friday: band
saturday: JB for grandpa's birthday
sunday: sending someone off. ):

11/14/2006 09:58:00 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

it's been absolute ages since i actually last updated.. got TONNES of photos to upload and lots of hot gossip to share! and since my wireless is like FINALLY up, you'll get the latest on ANYTHING, i promise. unless it's a sensitive issue..

looking back on the past year, i feel thankful to have gotten into 3e3, for the friends i have, the love i get, the ~~terrible~~ teachers, the wonderful times i've had in band, the times we cried, the times we laughed. hell yeah it was fun. now that the year is drawing to a close, pangs of sadness fill my heart (excuse the sentimentalism). in my entire st. margs school life, this is the class that i will miss the most. thankfully, we will all be in the same class next year because no one dropped. (:

the past few weeks have really been eventful. i've finally shifted house, and all the etc etc. and i;ve been so mega busy with band and schoolwork recently that i've only swam twice in the three weeks that i've stayed in my new house. this house is madness. the weirdest thing is that i've only used my house key (yeah the adorable bimbo piece of fluff) ONCE. i've been bitten by countless of mosquitos and now that i've been to some biochemistry workshop, i'm starting to feel that if i don't become a lawyer, i may move into biochemistry. worse still. i might become a teacher. @_@

bands been really really fun! (: we're starting to get the SYF spirit back.. and all the hyperness, the gales of laughter, the stress is all coming back to me. now that i think about my predecessors, i'm very thankful to have had them teach me and i really wonder if my juniors feel the same way. in 7 months time, i will be officially stepping down and whilst we are in the midst of preparing for SYF, i can't help but feel a little selfish, wanting to take some time away for myself. but then again, i have the sake of the band in my hands. (: my little tribute to the horn section,

i love you guys more than you'd ever know.

the past weeks have really really been trying. i hate fighting. i swear i hate it. being with someone kinda makes me reflect on my life (a mere 15 years to date). i don't know how to put this across, but i just feel that , somehow or other, he always makes me feel super guilty. and then i'd feel really bad. and then i'd go off to sulk for awhile. then later he comes back to me and tells me that i'm wrong for storming off. @_@ tell me this is weird. a relationship is supposed to be fun and happy. i guess it still is. (( : that makes me wanna SMILE>>> (:

i can't exactly write anymore because i can't type with people looking over my back.

but i'm BACK FOR GOOD !( :

he's leaving on my anni. shoot me.

it's stars and us alone.

A: mommy! he doesn't want to take a photo with me!
B: but of course, he wants to show off to his numerous girlfriends that he is still single and swimming.

i need a change of blogskins. bimbo anyone?

FRENCHhorns. FRENCHkiss. FRENCHfries. FRENCHunderwear.

guess what's next.

POPSICLES!

as usual, my random self requires much space for expression. i am an artist. (:

i don't know what to say anymore.

11/09/2006 10:53:00 PM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

it's my last last last post in my old house.. and i'm rushing this post because someone wants to hear my voice! (:

reflections:

this house has been my joy and sorrow for the last five years(and more). this is the house where i loved, lost, created, destroyed, cried, laughed, lived, learned, heard, understood, hurt, have been hurt, and finally, grown up. this house kinda helped my family tide through a really rough patch.. especially when we were faced with crap problems that i really don't want to talk about.

all in all, i'll miss this place tonnes. but then again. this house brought me much misery. all the talking, the bitching, the yakking. so i can't say i'm too upset to leave this place. (:

that's all i'm going to say about this house..

HAHAHA.. reading tessa cheryl and amanda's blog is really fun! cuz i see my name there MANY MANY TIMES (: and i love all three of you!! (:

this year has really been a fantastic year for me.. i've got a wonderful love/hate kinda post in band (hey, trust me. being the section leader ain't no piece of cake). i've found WONDERFUL FRIENDS, i've found a wonderful person to share my life with, i've had a fantastic concert, i'm in the midst of preparing for a fantastic SYF, i'm having a hell lot of a good time shifting, i love everything around me and even though there isn't much time for my studies and i didn't exactly do well (i actually did better than i expected), i really really enjoyed myself this year.. including all the times i got sent out of class. the times we got stuck at the back because we didn't do laoshi's homework. the wonderful free periods we got because etey didn't come.. the really really wonderful gossip sessions we have in class and all the commenting on the teacher's attire.. (this is so typical bitchy schoolgirl) ANYWAY. i fought many many times with my family.. but hey.. everything worked out.. and the best thing is that. it's kinda stable. HAHA. i had a fantastic year.. thanks to all you people! (:

reflecting on the past one week (yes it has already been ONE WHOLE WEEK), i've kinda realised that somehow or other, i've matured. in ways that i never discovered.. thanks to the experience and all that, i've got a better hand at dealing with feelings and petty things.. but i'm quite puzzled. i guess i feel things that i've never felt before.. and i really don't know if they are normal or not. like i told cheryltessaamanda, i caught myself smiling for no apparent reason. @_@ the days seem shorter and every minute flies past. maybe it's time to really put my foot forward and take a step blindfolded into uncharted waters. (:

so all in all, i had a wonderful week. (: with all my wonderful friends, my fantastic family, and my special you. (:

o come all ye faithful,
joyful and triumphant,
O come ye, O come ye to Bethlehem.
Come and behold Him,
Born the King of Angels;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.

- we sang this in chapel today.

merry christmas everyone! (:

kinda sad someone's flying away on onemonth. but then again. i'll get to spend christmas and his birthday with him (: EH. someone didn't spend my birthday with me. ): haha. but then again. i've got the rest of my life to look forward to! (:

My love for you will never end
Youll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
On passing by
Youll always be my baby boy.

(:

10/26/2006 08:15:00 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

yo PEEPS!

i haven't blogged for AGES! sorry about that.. heh. no one to entertain you HUH. (:

anyway... been major busy with tonnes of stuff.. like the person beside me.. and band.. and shifting.. can't wait for house~~burning~~warming.. (: darrrn. there are so many things going on! haha..

191006.

thanks for the congrats messages and everything. (:

it's kinda hard to sink into my system that i'm not alone.. but i guess this is gonna work out. i hope.

CHERYL ASKD ME TO DO THIS
7 random things about myself :
1. i am not ALONE. BWAHAHAHHAA.
2. i bathe for an approx 10-30 mins a day.
3. imma live for MUSIC. (:
4. i love love love love you
5. i love love love my friends!
6. sabrina the teenage witch is on my tv now.
7. i made my mp3 cover.

7 things that scare me :
1. THE DARRRK ):
2. hairr
3. HAHAHAH. horirble MUSIC.
4. out of tune bands
5. cookie escaping.
6. exam results
7. fish poop.

random songs at the moment :
1. jian dan ai
2. twisted transistor remix
3. is you is or is you ain't my baby verve remix
4. can't fight the moonlight
5. keep on moving
6. chasing cars
7. i'm good without you,

7 things i like most :
1. the person beside me
2. my mp3
3. my/his phone
4. ICECREAM
5. chorrrrrcolet.
6. warrrmth
7. solidarity

7 people to do this :
1. tessa
2. amanda
3. mila
4. kaixinguo
5. jw (who obviously won't do this)
6. uh. BLANK
7. uh. BLINK BLANK too.

RIGHT. no more posts until i get all my photos from cheryl.. (:

it's all about us.

10/24/2006 09:59:00 AM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

HAHHA> today was damn fuuuunnnnyy! (:

we totally had such a farrnnn time doing skincare and make up ! (: BOOOM!~ me manda tessa cheryl rayna and amanda loh had such an uber fun time making up and caking ourselves. and i've just realised thattttt I CAN DO MAKEUP FOR PEOPLE PRETTY GOOD (:

yummers. went back to class. and SOMETHING SCANDALOUS HAPPENED. i feel like telling cyp.. but then i'd feel so guilty.

CHERYL I WANT PHOTOS!

today was GREAT. except that i got home at 7. and i'm still craving chocolates.

sigh. i'm doing someone's project work. CIAOOO>

skin on silk.
milk on skin.
let lovers lie,
under the moon's dim gleam.

10/17/2006 09:54:00 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

crap. i did a long long entry and EVERYTHING got deleted.

kremlin_himself@hotmail.com says:
Yeah. "*croak* I'm really sick, and I think I have irritable bowel syndrome, plus I'm puking every ten minutes... sure, I'll stay at home..."
♪ on impulse; says:
haha.. i'd pay big bucks to see you croaking.. (( :
♪ on impulse; says:
take care of yourself OKAY?
kremlin_himself@hotmail.com says:
Ribbit.
♪ on impulse; says:
take lots of care and lots of water..
♪ on impulse; says:
wow.
♪ on impulse; says:
steph turned into a frog.
♪ on impulse; says:
WOW>
♪ on impulse; says:
RIBBIT RIBBIT! (:
kremlin_himself@hotmail.com says:
Sorry, i don't DO, amphibian. Eugh.
kremlin_himself@hotmail.com says:
Gimme a reptile any day.
♪ on impulse; says:
dammit. (( :

convo between me and stephhh (: gawd.. did i mention, me tessa and steph had a MAJOR bitching session on the day of the emath paper one. (:

yummers. past few days ave been real fun slacking at home.. but i can't wait to go back for band. (: let's see now. i plan on properly enjoying myself before i get back to the no-nonsense nicole , all work no play dolt. (:

checklist of things to do:
1. settle stuff with my SECTION
2. make IC
3. i want to watch The Guardian!! MOVIE DATE ANYONE?
4. i'm supposed to go out with connie and edmund. BUT....
5. i need to finish my jonathon kellerman.
6. i need to download a lot a lot a lot of movies! (:
6. lemme see. i need to buy _______ for jw.
7. plan for housewarming?
8. SHIFT HOUSE.
9. faint at the sight of my dismal eoy results. if i get less than 20 points i will scream for joy i tell you.
10. kill my siblings. for being horribly mean to me even though i bought them crunchie.

someone has to gimme a job. IMMA GONNA NEED IT because i have to pay off a current liability of $350 for my new flute. SIGH.

well.. imma off to take a bath. smells of ginvera wafts from the bathroom. YUMMERS>

bite me baby. (:

10/15/2006 09:16:00 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

alrighties. this blog is plain boring and utterly DULL. and since i have nothing that will interest you, be prepared for an uber non-heartstopping post.

UHHHM. i went for flute class on wednesday. guess i didn't lose any of my hard earned skills that took so bloody-freaking-long to master. ANYWAY. flute was really fun.. did scales for a whole fifteen minutes outta the fourty-five. GAWD. my fingers wanted to break off and form another hand.. (kinda like a segmented worm cut into two) but, well. it was good. and and.. while i was there, the most brilliant idea struck me. (:

i need to have two section outings, one, to help sahidah bond , two, to have a final section outing with the seniors before we say byebye (get ready for HORNFLOWERPOWER crying hysterics!!) so i'm gonna do a barbeque with the seniors -i think- and do a movie marathon with the rest of the section because because because. we all don't wanna spend MOOLAH. but i think i'll make them cough up for the bbq. its not like i'm loaded.

sooo. went out twice this week. hard to imagine nicole going out twice. HAHA. (: tuesday, short sweet simple. went out for dinner at Pastamania with jw at our usual suntec and walked and walked and walked. i swear i know the upper end of town (closer to the CBD) like the back of my palm. yesterday, went to suntec to catch a movie! like FINALLY! my body has been screaming MOVIE since the beginning of brain-frying season.. so, i finally got my release from all that pent up frustration (sounds like describing SOMETHING else huh.. ) (: anyway. we watched World Trade Centre. mind you. it's kinda sad. watch it if you've got the guts. if you don't have the stomach, than i suggest you have a couple packets o' tissue and sit tight. i don't think you want to look like a bawling baby.. so maybe a cold spoon might help..

spent the rest of my time either packing up (yeah in preparation of the BIG BIG MOVE that everyone is so impossibly hyped and stressed about ) or watching CSI season 3 (hey i made it to no. 10 already! ) or if not, reading.. so basically, i've been recuperating from my uber horrifying experience of having my exams in the hall.

p. s. A NOTE TO ALL MY DARLING JUNIORS. the hall is NOT FREEZING during examination.. it's just cold. so a jacket is advisable.. but not COMPULSARY. (:

diediedie. i'm so TIRED. TIRED TIRED TIRED. BLEHHHHHHX. i've still got to look after the kids. SIGH...

anything else? no.. nothing. gee. i'll be back.. i think.

i'm gonna be on on-and-off hiatus. i don't know. i just don't feel like blogging much..

10/13/2006 04:17:00 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

okay, FINALLY i got myself a new blog.. i'm pretty fed up with my previous one (scroll over the previous one to go to the old blog). apparently, it's been blocked because i've been labeled as a "spam blogger". NOW, does this look like spam to you? alright..

i don't really have much of the mood to blog now. so i guess i'll catch up with all you people. soon .

10/12/2006 12:05:00 PM

WOW> look. new blog.

10/12/2006 11:46:00 AM